About Me
Growing up, I often felt like a puzzle piece that didn’t quite fit anywhere. My sensitivity and intuition set me apart from my peers, which made me feel isolated in moments filled with joyful laughter. I could sense the unspoken emotions swirling around me, diving deep into the feelings that others seemed to keep hidden. This gift, though precious, is intertwined with my trauma—a deep-seated fear of rejection and abandonment.
From an early age, I learned to adapt and mold myself into who I thought would earn approval. In the hope of connecting with others, I became a people pleaser, often suppressing my true self. Friends and family would advise me to "grow a thicker skin" or tell me I was "being too sensitive." Their words echoed in my mind, casting shadows of confusion over how to navigate relationships. Deep down, I recognized my gifts, yet embracing them felt daunting and selfish.
For years, I drifted through life, taking on roles and jobs that aligned with others’ expectations. I pursued paths that I hoped would validate me, all while grappling with a gnawing emptiness inside. Shame became my constant companion, urging me to bury my desires and gifts in a relentless quest for acceptance.
The turning point came when my mom fell ill. She was my anchor, my biggest supporter, the one who recognized my gifts long before I did. As I watched her suffer, the importance of my emotional well-being became painfully clear. I began therapy, and for the first time, I prioritized myself. Losing her left me feeling lost and adrift, struggling to fill the vast void she left behind.
During this challenging time, I embarked on a journey of healing and self-discovery. A friend invited me to join a 200-hour yoga teacher training. As I moved through the poses and breathed deeply, I felt a gentle whisper inside me, guiding me toward the holistic path I had always longed for. This led me to Reiki, unveiling another layer of my purpose.
To my surprise, I realized I had been practicing Reiki on myself all along—unconsciously placing my hands on my body as if reaching out to my own heart. Every session I conducted for others flowed naturally, as if it had been a part of me my entire life. Through yoga and Reiki, my connection to my inner self blossomed, illuminating a clearer path forward.
Throughout my healing journey, an essential lesson emerged: I needed to advocate for myself and pursue what resonated deeply within my heart. While this remains a challenge, I’m learning to set boundaries and trust my instincts. The road ahead is still fragile, marked by a continuous ebb and flow of growth.
Today, as I reflect on my journey, I feel a profound sense of gratitude for all I’ve endured. Every hardship has played a crucial role in shaping who I am and deepening my compassion—not just for others, but also for myself. Being a Reiki practitioner truly feels like the most authentic expression of who I am, and I’m filled with excitement for what the future holds. The journey ahead is beautiful and unknown, and I look forward to exploring every twist and turn that awaits me.